Entrusted.

Ten weeks ago, our family was once again given the greatest privilege I have ever experienced. Benjie & I found out we were being entrusted to journey through the stages of parenthood all over again! We were thrilled. We were surprisingly shocked. We were nervous and overwhelmed and overcome with all the jittery feelings you feel when you find out something of this magnitude. I feel so blessed, so extremely blessed, that God, the Creator of All Things, found us fit to parent this tiny, little bean that He so graciously, so perfectly placed into my life.

 

On {or sometime near} March 21st, 2014, we will be adding a baby boy or a baby girl to our family. We will become the Polnick Family Party of Five!

 

This summer has and will quite possibly go down as the most eventful twelve weeks in our life! For the past twelve weeks, we have been out of town at least one day of every single week! We've done a girl's trip to The Gaylord Texan, San Antonio & Sea World, Six Flags, Palm Desert, California, back to Six Flags, celebrated the 4th at the Hillman's annual swim party, had Pappy and Alynn come for a Bucket List adventure, celebrated my 34th birthday, enjoyed a Cousin Camp of sorts in Abilene for a few days, celebrated Benjie's 35th birthday, spent a week in Colorado (where we found out about our little surprise), participated in Vacation Bible School for a few days before leaving for a quick trip to Lubbock, Texas; we spent a four days at home with Baylor Biddie Ball Camp, Griffin's 4th birthday party and then, we were off to Abilene for a  shower honoring Casey and Julie. When we returned to Waco, we packed back up and headed off to South Padre Island with the McFarling family! On Monday when we returned, we had a visit from Barbs and Lynnette and then, we loaded the car and later that evening headed to Comanche to deliver Creighton to Mimi and Pop Pop for a few days. On Friday when he returned home, we headed west again to Brownwood and spent the weekend with Jon and Kasey at the lake. We are now home and somewhat settled and waiting for Creighter Bug to start school.

 

The specific details of this summer and the ways God revealed Himself to me in several of these stories is truly a gift! There is nothing in this world like knowing and feeling the power of God move in and around you!

 

I'm tired. I'm living in a fog. I'm lazy and unmotivated. I feel as if I just live moment by moment, hoping to accomplish a ten minute task before feeling like I need to go lay down. I am plagued by guilt of the lack of recording my thoughts and feelings and ideas, journaling our day to day and significant events, so tonight, I decided, I'm starting over.

 

I'm picking up from where I am and I am going to start now. I'm going to start from today with the small steps to regaining control of my life, my mind, my energy!

 

Would you start over with me?